When people first meet me, I’m often very quiet, especially when I start a new job. Over time, I become more relaxed and more myself, which means I don’t shut up–something all my friends can attest to.
Over the last five or ten years, I’ve noticed that I’ve become a bit of a loudmouth. I always joke about my mouth getting me in trouble; after all, I’m fairly certain I’ll never get a “real” gaming journalism job thanks to my inability to keep quiet when I see ridiculocity, and I’m fairly certain I was fired from one job for my mouth. Most recently, a cousin has told me he never wants to speak to me again, thanks to me stupidly firing off at him on Facebook. And who can forget about my yelling at a cop in LA two years ago?
This brings me to something I’ve thought a lot about today: I think my loud mouth is a little out of control.
I honestly don’t mind that I may be on a black list from certain gaming media, because I wouldn’t be happy working for those standards in the first place. I also like that people know you’ll always know what I think. At the same time, I wonder how much of that is really a good thing.
Same goes with my joking. I’m full of sarcasm, and so are most of my friends, but sometimes that blows up in my face. I got in a sarcasm war with one of my closest friends and it escalated to the point that neither of us knew if the other one was joking anymore. We’re fine now, but I shouldn’t have let it blow out of proportion like that.
Makes me think that I’ll never really find a good fit at a “normal” office job, but I’m not outgoing enough to start my own business and find clients. So what does this mean for me? I should start on my book and make millions.
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